this is what i dream about...

when i get frustrated....

I simply take a deep breath and say....

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

And pretend I am here.

That is my place, the ocean, 

the sand, my bikini, and my bike. 

 Oh summer get here faster,

 I need to be reunited with my tribe. 

Oh and can't forget my good old freckles! 

Miss them the most,

 they are my friends. 

living the life

I don't think many people can say that they go to school, play a sport, have an amazing support system and each day think how grateful they are for the life they have.  I am that person.  Just about two years into this thing called college and I am finally feeling like I belong.  I have so much to learn from this place and the people here.

  

I had the amazing privilege to have Brit come and spend a week with me here at GU.  This was after a great week of discovering what everyday life is like for her.  I loved every minute with her in Greeley.  But after the year I had I just wanted her to see how much I had grown into my life.  And it didn't take long for her to see how much I come alive here.  This is my place and these are my people. 

I have so much to prove.  Growing up is and will be the hardest thing I am going through.  As much as it frustrates me it isn't going away.  But instead of fearing it I have decided to face it head on. 

Bring it on! 

But here is a little update:

Volleyball is great, I was told that I would be challenged in the spring.  Consider challenge conquered! 

School is going to get better as soon as I declare my major.  Environmental Studies :)

Yes there is a boy, but that is all I will say.

I have a great best friend here, Hannah and she is amazing.  Can't wait to have her meet my family!

I signed my lease for the house I will be living in next year.  AKA no more cog food!!

But that is all I can think of.

Here are a few quotes from my new favorite book that Grandma Kitty gave me for my trip back from winter break.

"Be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are.  When you realize there is nothing lacking, the world belongs to you." -Lao-Tzu philosopher

"LIfe is a bitch.  You've got to go out and kick ass."- Maya Angelou writer

"Success is relative. It is what we can make of the mess we have made of things." -T.S. Eliot writer

"He that lives upon hope, dies farting"- Benjamin Franklin statesman

"The world breaks everyone and afterward many are stronger at the broken places." -Ernest Hemingway  writer

"The important thing is not what they think of me, but what I think of them."- Victoria Queen of England

LOVE

not really big on valentines day...but what the hey!

what is one more day just to say i love you. 

sending love to everyone.

i love you. 

have a great day! 

in the end you can't make everyone happy...

you have to do what is best for you and stay true to yourself, be strong and carry on.  listen to your gut. 

was reminded of this while planning alittle something for volleyball and 

when this amazing art piece came in the mail....

" DON'T WORRY 

HOLD ON 

STAY STRONG 

EVERYTHING 

IS GONNA 

 BE ALRIGHT"

thanks aunt steph...i really needed that :) 

love you 

word from the wise

HAHAHAHA not that I am wise I am only twenty years old for God sake.  But do not, let me repeat do not joke about marrying five cats! That is all I am going to say.

now i know why i am so crazy and still have my child like spirit...

these two are the craziest dorks I have ever encountered

good thing too otherwise life would be disappointing, gotta love a good sense of humor.

and this spirit along with being competitive athletes (besides my mother's fear of video embarrassment) is shown below.

thanks for the laughs parental unit. 

A Great Ending and An Amazing Beginning

After a long and stressful year coming home was the only way for me to refresh and getting ready for the New Year.  I am so lucky to be so close to my family.  A plus is how supportive and loving they are. 

I mean look at me...I am alot to handle. 

But my parents are aging nicely. This time of year I am always reminded how lucky I am to have such amazing parents.  They are so loving and their guidance that continues to show me the way.  They allow me learn on my but are always there for a pep talk.  Spending the Holiday Season with them was great I miss them so much when I am away at school.

Some other people I have been missing dearly.

My sistas.  These girls are the reason I do everything I do.

My "awesome cousin" Ari has always been more than a cousin to me and will always be a sister. I love you girls so much and I am so grateful to have the special time we have together.  All the laughs, the fights, the sleepovers, the dance parties.  

With Christmas came my Birthday bringing a new decade.  As I go into my twenties I want to thank my Grandmother for all of her inspiration.  I love her to pieces and I am so blessed to have her be such a huge part of my life. 

And my two amazingly talented Aunts who are role models in my life. Love them so much. And all of their punks. 

This is my Tribe.

 Oh how I love loud love. 

home is where the heart is

get me home right now!

what's not to love...

I am a freshman at heart what can I say.  I love these girls!