home is where my soul lives

this place

these people

make my world spin round

are the reason i wake up each day

the reason i have a smile on my face

the reason i do what i do 

ahhhh hommeeeee

someone tweeted this yesterday...

Having a rough day? Place your hand over your heart. Feel that? That's called purpose. You're alive for a reason.

we have to remember this when we are having 

 a rough day.

I know I needed to hear this yesterday. 

looking forward to some lazy days in my near future.

this whole school and volleyball thing is wearing me thin.

which gets me really pumped about my four week winter break and 

my lovely thanksgiving weekend! 

the count downs have offically begun! 

today is a lazy sunday but not really....

have alot of homework and other activities to attend to, 

therefore not LAZY! 

ughhhh

but i am enjoying downloading some new tunes for our roadtrip this 

next week.  music is my outlet to serenity.

ahhh love my tunes!!

can't wait to jammmm on my ipod in the airport! 

these awesome people are in sight!! cannot wait to see my baby boy and 

love of my life! 

and then of course my second team!

so ready to cheer my heart out for these girls! 

16 days till turkey day

40 days till home to SANTA BARBARA 

life is pretty nice these days...livin the dream

 i am so grateful!

you

this is the little girl i do everything for, i am making her dreams come true.

you are braver

than you believe

stronger

than you've seen

smarter 

than you think

and loved

more than you know

it's days like this...

that make me remember why i am so blessed.

my family is the most gracious of hosts, 

givers of love, 

acceptors of the lost and lonely,

lovers of laughter,

silent admirers of the happiest home.

why do i get to call this family mine?

i don't know why and don't want to question it because

it's mine. who could be so lucky?

me. 

dear God, 

thanks for the best life.  i couldn't be happier.  

it's awesome. the end. 

thanks mere

and i get to call this place HOME.

wow

thats all i can say

beautiful fall day

be yourself. don't die a copy. 

love the person who saw you when you were invisible.

it is okay to cry. 

live the life you have imagined. 

be honest with yourself

value who you are right now. 

don't focus on negative thoughts

don't delay your fears.

believe in something higher than yourself

hug yourself a bunch

don't compare yourself to others.

lovely weekend...

this man is so incredibly talented its outrageous! 

allen stone

please buy his cd i highly recommend it :)

loved him but after hearing him live i am maddly in love...

 after great music came an amazing adventure.

a couple of my team mates and i went out to green bulf

a group of farms that sell different produce depending upon the season

i could live out here, so gorgeous

so that means....

PUMPKINSSS!!! 

happy mere....

a real life pumpkin patch! like the movies and charlie brown :)

love my big fancy camera! may never go anywhere again without it! 

 love these punks

this photo reminds me of jungle book...

 great weekend in a sea of crazy volleyball/school life

thanks for giving me the world

I want to thank everyone who came to my match in San Diego yesterday, 

it made my week!  I had no idea how much 

I needed it but I did. 

It was a Crenshaw Clan family reunion and not only did it make me 

extremely happy but my parents as well.  I love every single

one of my family members they are who made me

who I am today.  Thank you.

And all my dear friends who drove out, I miss you all terribly! 

It makes me so excited for Decemeber when

 I can spend more time with you guys! 

Thank you for the support you guys are a huge part of why 

I get up each day and do what I do! 

I could not do it without knowing you all are there to support my dreams. 

love you, mere

my mom gave me some baby pictures of me and brit, 

reminding me of all the scanned photos I own so 

i wanted to share this one! haha

sweat creates great things...

sorry i have an issue and i am not one bit embarassed by it! sorry i have been so bad at writing and updating this thing but i am so busy.  i am like santa clause premanently on december 24, this the time of year i wait for every other time of the year! 

sending love to all! hope all is well, miss you! 

five cats and msyelf

get excited!

the day i've been waiting for

it has taken me two years but i have figured out what i want and how i need to do it.  i have devoted my whole summer to getting in the best shape possible and today is the day when i prove everyone, including myself that i can and will do everything i set my mind to.  my third year as a divison one athlete lets see if with age comes wisdom.  and yes in the picture i did spill coffee down my shorts.  

lovin life up here in the northwest but missin my fam

this is what i dream about...

when i get frustrated....

I simply take a deep breath and say....

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

And pretend I am here.

That is my place, the ocean, 

the sand, my bikini, and my bike. 

 Oh summer get here faster,

 I need to be reunited with my tribe. 

Oh and can't forget my good old freckles! 

Miss them the most,

 they are my friends. 

living the life

I don't think many people can say that they go to school, play a sport, have an amazing support system and each day think how grateful they are for the life they have.  I am that person.  Just about two years into this thing called college and I am finally feeling like I belong.  I have so much to learn from this place and the people here.

  

I had the amazing privilege to have Brit come and spend a week with me here at GU.  This was after a great week of discovering what everyday life is like for her.  I loved every minute with her in Greeley.  But after the year I had I just wanted her to see how much I had grown into my life.  And it didn't take long for her to see how much I come alive here.  This is my place and these are my people. 

I have so much to prove.  Growing up is and will be the hardest thing I am going through.  As much as it frustrates me it isn't going away.  But instead of fearing it I have decided to face it head on. 

Bring it on! 

But here is a little update:

Volleyball is great, I was told that I would be challenged in the spring.  Consider challenge conquered! 

School is going to get better as soon as I declare my major.  Environmental Studies :)

Yes there is a boy, but that is all I will say.

I have a great best friend here, Hannah and she is amazing.  Can't wait to have her meet my family!

I signed my lease for the house I will be living in next year.  AKA no more cog food!!

But that is all I can think of.

Here are a few quotes from my new favorite book that Grandma Kitty gave me for my trip back from winter break.

"Be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are.  When you realize there is nothing lacking, the world belongs to you." -Lao-Tzu philosopher

"LIfe is a bitch.  You've got to go out and kick ass."- Maya Angelou writer

"Success is relative. It is what we can make of the mess we have made of things." -T.S. Eliot writer

"He that lives upon hope, dies farting"- Benjamin Franklin statesman

"The world breaks everyone and afterward many are stronger at the broken places." -Ernest Hemingway  writer

"The important thing is not what they think of me, but what I think of them."- Victoria Queen of England

LOVE

not really big on valentines day...but what the hey!

what is one more day just to say i love you. 

sending love to everyone.

i love you. 

have a great day! 

in the end you can't make everyone happy...

you have to do what is best for you and stay true to yourself, be strong and carry on.  listen to your gut. 

was reminded of this while planning alittle something for volleyball and 

when this amazing art piece came in the mail....

" DON'T WORRY 

HOLD ON 

STAY STRONG 

EVERYTHING 

IS GONNA 

 BE ALRIGHT"

thanks aunt steph...i really needed that :) 

love you 

word from the wise

HAHAHAHA not that I am wise I am only twenty years old for God sake.  But do not, let me repeat do not joke about marrying five cats! That is all I am going to say.

now i know why i am so crazy and still have my child like spirit...

these two are the craziest dorks I have ever encountered

good thing too otherwise life would be disappointing, gotta love a good sense of humor.

and this spirit along with being competitive athletes (besides my mother's fear of video embarrassment) is shown below.

thanks for the laughs parental unit. 

A Great Ending and An Amazing Beginning

After a long and stressful year coming home was the only way for me to refresh and getting ready for the New Year.  I am so lucky to be so close to my family.  A plus is how supportive and loving they are. 

I mean look at me...I am alot to handle. 

But my parents are aging nicely. This time of year I am always reminded how lucky I am to have such amazing parents.  They are so loving and their guidance that continues to show me the way.  They allow me learn on my but are always there for a pep talk.  Spending the Holiday Season with them was great I miss them so much when I am away at school.

Some other people I have been missing dearly.

My sistas.  These girls are the reason I do everything I do.

My "awesome cousin" Ari has always been more than a cousin to me and will always be a sister. I love you girls so much and I am so grateful to have the special time we have together.  All the laughs, the fights, the sleepovers, the dance parties.  

With Christmas came my Birthday bringing a new decade.  As I go into my twenties I want to thank my Grandmother for all of her inspiration.  I love her to pieces and I am so blessed to have her be such a huge part of my life. 

And my two amazingly talented Aunts who are role models in my life. Love them so much. And all of their punks. 

This is my Tribe.

 Oh how I love loud love.