in the end you can't make everyone happy...

you have to do what is best for you and stay true to yourself, be strong and carry on.  listen to your gut. 

was reminded of this while planning alittle something for volleyball and 

when this amazing art piece came in the mail....

" DON'T WORRY 

HOLD ON 

STAY STRONG 

EVERYTHING 

IS GONNA 

 BE ALRIGHT"

thanks aunt steph...i really needed that :) 

love you 

word from the wise

HAHAHAHA not that I am wise I am only twenty years old for God sake.  But do not, let me repeat do not joke about marrying five cats! That is all I am going to say.

now i know why i am so crazy and still have my child like spirit...

these two are the craziest dorks I have ever encountered

good thing too otherwise life would be disappointing, gotta love a good sense of humor.

and this spirit along with being competitive athletes (besides my mother's fear of video embarrassment) is shown below.

thanks for the laughs parental unit. 

A Great Ending and An Amazing Beginning

After a long and stressful year coming home was the only way for me to refresh and getting ready for the New Year.  I am so lucky to be so close to my family.  A plus is how supportive and loving they are. 

I mean look at me...I am alot to handle. 

But my parents are aging nicely. This time of year I am always reminded how lucky I am to have such amazing parents.  They are so loving and their guidance that continues to show me the way.  They allow me learn on my but are always there for a pep talk.  Spending the Holiday Season with them was great I miss them so much when I am away at school.

Some other people I have been missing dearly.

My sistas.  These girls are the reason I do everything I do.

My "awesome cousin" Ari has always been more than a cousin to me and will always be a sister. I love you girls so much and I am so grateful to have the special time we have together.  All the laughs, the fights, the sleepovers, the dance parties.  

With Christmas came my Birthday bringing a new decade.  As I go into my twenties I want to thank my Grandmother for all of her inspiration.  I love her to pieces and I am so blessed to have her be such a huge part of my life. 

And my two amazingly talented Aunts who are role models in my life. Love them so much. And all of their punks. 

This is my Tribe.

 Oh how I love loud love. 

home is where the heart is

get me home right now!

what's not to love...

I am a freshman at heart what can I say.  I love these girls! 

thanksgiving....alot of things to be thankful for!

Even though I am not at home I have had an amazing Thanksgiving!  I love my home away from home, Heather and Terry are so good to me.  I am so grateful to have been able to be here with them for the holiday.  And Kaleb is the sweetest and I am so grateful to have this time with him.  He is so smart and each time I see him he is bigger and has learned something new.  I love him!  And Brit was lucky enough to have some time with him and it was precious!  She cried the moment she saw him, it was exactly like my first time meeting him except lucky for her he is walking now!  Here are some pictures of their meeting at the local Red Lion Hotel.  He was a little confused at first why there was to Meres but later in the day at Brit's game he totally knew who she was. He was so pumped at the match and was cheering.  He is so cute!

I have many things to be thankful for; my health, my education, my incredible family, my friends.  I am so lucky!  I cannot wait for Christmas time to be back home and surrounded by family again.  Only three more weeks, hopefully it will go by fast.

Hope everyone had an amazing Thanksgiving!  Love to all!

life is tiring...

hey sorry I have been lame.  i have been busy getting my emotional state back to normal.  and good news! it is pretty darn close.  but as this begins to become normal my physical state is lacking.  after a long volleyball season, that has been more of an emotional roller coaster then a anything else, comes to end all i can think about is my bed and how i long to sleep for a few weeks or maybe a month.  but more than anything i long to be with my family.  it has been way to long!  at this time last year i had already spent time with my father and grandmother but this year has been quite lonely in the family department.  except the volleyball matches!! christmas count down will begin shortly as soon as i return for Portland to see my closest family within driving distance.

one other random factoid that has been bothering me.  i have been the envy of many growing up a redhead.  always being told how amazing the color is and how so many people spend hundreds of dollars on attempting to recreate this color.  okay so i get that i have great hair, who doesn't? ha but if you take that unique characteristic and add 6 feet of height and times that by two you have a feared combo.  i mean in the boy department.  don't get me wrong i love my looks and i know i am beautiful (not in a conceded way but in a i love myself first before other love me kind of way).  but could some one tell the college boys of GONZAGA that it is beautiful because i hate all blondes and brunettes at this point.  well anyway i do not need anyone at this point i just want some to think i am pretty.  and no family i do not need to hear it from you more often! so if that is all you are going to comment, then don't. haha

love to all!

taylor swift

tay swift has yet again come out with a fantastic album. it is true and from the heart! love it!

for those of you who are interested i am more than happy to email it to you!

future car no biggy..

nothing here to report! halloween this weekend and i am a lumber jack, will post photos later! have a great week :)

MY NEW SPECS

For those of you who don't have the pleasure of seeing me in person I took the liberty of snapping a little photo of myself in my new protective eye wear.  I have to wear them the rest of the season and probably my volleyball career lucky me! Anyway I rock them.